I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems. a course in miracles The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to fairly share wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have allow you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents’satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.